Heyo! Just a new announcement~ The writer has decided that this blog deserves a new perspective as well as a NEW Name!!!!! hehe...
well, mum and dad were right (FYI, my parents are very technology-literate, they read my blogs...), maybe the whole world can call me a bakchi, or i can act as one... but it still goes down to whether i deserve to own a title that's not edifying... I admit that i was defensive, claiming that the term "bakchi" was used in a casual way and that i was comfortable with... However, I too realised the truthfulness that lies within my parents' advice... So right here, I want to thank daddy and mummy for always being there for me, watching out for me, and praying for me~
I've learned 3 valuable lessons today~
1. I do not have to conform to the ways of the world but remember "what would Jesus do".
2. I do not have to use blogs to express negativity because i should learn to forgive.
3. Actions speak louder than words. Therefore, whatever I say or do should be edifying.
*Drumroll...*
In conclusion, there will be more emo updates from "the happy one" (FYI, Felicia does mean "the happy one").. Stay tune n be blessed =)
Friday, April 25, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Love? Is it so hard to achieve?
Once upon a time, (well..not really..) i used to have girly talks with my crazy friends and we came out with a long list of traits-must-haves for our Mr. Right. Personally i believed it was due to the effects of the ever-additive idol drama series... Haha...
Well, as age is catching up, i had to discard my selfish desires gradually... if not i might have to face the risk of staying single and non-attractive, living with ten kittens, and knitting on a rocking chair for the rest of my life!!!!! NNNOOOOOoooooo!!!!!!!! *dramatic music at the background....*
*clears throat*. Therefore, i shorten my expectations to only 3.. Gleefully thinking that i was so "wise" and "down-to-earth".. To be honest, i was pretty proud of myself.. Little did i know, it was super hard to even fulfill those 3 essentials.. Gahh... Maybe i have to start learning from Jarod on how to be a good mummy to kittens after all... Dang~
Behold, my 3 must-haves:
1. He must LOVE God.
2. He must LOVE me.
3. I must LOVE him.
Seems simple enough but i kept running into guys with good prospects but only fulfilled 2 out of 3 @_@... It would be either that wonderful and rich guy is not a Christian, or a marvellous Christian who doesn't love me as much as i loved him, or a great brother in Christ whom i can't treat him more than a friend!!!!! Am getting kind of frustrated~ Lol...
People around me seems to be pretty concerned whether i will be troubled by peer pressure~ Of course it aches in the heart to see couples being all lovey-dovey while you can only warm your hands in the pockets of your wool jacket.. Of course sometimes you craved for male attention and the special tingling feeling within you that just brings excitement into your life... BUT, I've learned that heart breaks can really tear you apart, trample you on the floor, and leave a scar... If so, why then should i rush to have the warmth of the fire and either get my fingers burnt or froze myself to death when the fire is put off without notice???
You may call me old-fashioned and silly... Or even rebuke me for not fully-utilising my youth to explore this realm of love, lust and pleasure... But i am proud to be old-fashioned and silly... Because at the end of the day, my hubby gets the best of me, the whole of me. Doesn't the one whom i want to spend the rest of my life with deserve nothing but the best i could give???
Haha... More emo updates from the bakchi coming soon~
Signing out. *Mmuackkkss*
Well, as age is catching up, i had to discard my selfish desires gradually... if not i might have to face the risk of staying single and non-attractive, living with ten kittens, and knitting on a rocking chair for the rest of my life!!!!! NNNOOOOOoooooo!!!!!!!! *dramatic music at the background....*
*clears throat*. Therefore, i shorten my expectations to only 3.. Gleefully thinking that i was so "wise" and "down-to-earth".. To be honest, i was pretty proud of myself.. Little did i know, it was super hard to even fulfill those 3 essentials.. Gahh... Maybe i have to start learning from Jarod on how to be a good mummy to kittens after all... Dang~
Behold, my 3 must-haves:
1. He must LOVE God.
2. He must LOVE me.
3. I must LOVE him.
Seems simple enough but i kept running into guys with good prospects but only fulfilled 2 out of 3 @_@... It would be either that wonderful and rich guy is not a Christian, or a marvellous Christian who doesn't love me as much as i loved him, or a great brother in Christ whom i can't treat him more than a friend!!!!! Am getting kind of frustrated~ Lol...
People around me seems to be pretty concerned whether i will be troubled by peer pressure~ Of course it aches in the heart to see couples being all lovey-dovey while you can only warm your hands in the pockets of your wool jacket.. Of course sometimes you craved for male attention and the special tingling feeling within you that just brings excitement into your life... BUT, I've learned that heart breaks can really tear you apart, trample you on the floor, and leave a scar... If so, why then should i rush to have the warmth of the fire and either get my fingers burnt or froze myself to death when the fire is put off without notice???
You may call me old-fashioned and silly... Or even rebuke me for not fully-utilising my youth to explore this realm of love, lust and pleasure... But i am proud to be old-fashioned and silly... Because at the end of the day, my hubby gets the best of me, the whole of me. Doesn't the one whom i want to spend the rest of my life with deserve nothing but the best i could give???
Haha... More emo updates from the bakchi coming soon~
Signing out. *Mmuackkkss*
the bakchi's first blog~
Was reading Jarod's blog before chatting with him on msn and he asked me to leave a comment... To cut the whole story short, (though the story wasn't that long and complicated after all..lol..) i started this account to satisfy his demand..haha...
Man... What should be my first post then?
Maybe a lil introduction bout the writer and her beautiful lil world??? Hmmm... Let's see how it goes...
1st of May, 1987. There was a little breathe of life struggling to get out of the mother's womb to catch a glimpse of the outside world. Though she was causing havoc in her little prison, there was no doctor on duty to release the child from her cage and the mother from the unbearable pain. The mother was given insufficient painkillers and was screaming till the next morning while the father was getting restless and frustrated. Finally, at 6.37am, 2nd May 1987, a hairless baby girl was pulled out by the doctor and the dad rushed to count her fingers and toes. Happily he exclaimed, " God gave us a healthy baby!"
So this girl grew up, transforming from a total tomboy into a lady..(maybe not quite there yet..) She had her prime time becoming a head prefect in high school, hanging out in several cliques, holding few responsibilities, and becoming the teachers' pet during high school. Sometimes she does feel that God has been "unfair" as she felt that she was blessed too much if compared to others. God gave her good results, singing, dancing and acting talents, an incredible family, a good circle of friends, a great deal of confidence and dimples that she has always been proud of... To top things up, she was even blessed with three full-scholarships after her SPM examination... She could never fully understand the goodness of God.
But life for her wasn't a bed of roses from the beginning till the end... She had her share of drama in her process of growing up... Hypocrites, back-stabbers, cheating-lovers, and heart breakers going in and out... Yet she had to live up to her name, a beautiful name carefully selected by her parents - Felicia, meaning "the happy one". Therefore, she tends to hide behind the mask of a "bakchi", by being silly, bubbly, and yet proud of it. Before she knew, the mask was embedded in her, it became her, they became one.
To date, she may have some regrets in her life but she wouldn't want it in another way. She's excited about becoming a teacher as she believes she has what it takes to be an educator who inspires and makes a difference. Besides having a more intimate relationship with Jesus, she's contented on being single at the moment. She learned through the hard way that rushing into one and compromising on wrong decisions are simply unwise. She loves her life in Auckland and cant wait to unfold every single day to see what God has planned ahead for her...
She got to sign out for the moment as she still has to re-edit her assignment due tomorrow.
Till then~ Chow & God Bless @(^w^)@
Man... What should be my first post then?
Maybe a lil introduction bout the writer and her beautiful lil world??? Hmmm... Let's see how it goes...
1st of May, 1987. There was a little breathe of life struggling to get out of the mother's womb to catch a glimpse of the outside world. Though she was causing havoc in her little prison, there was no doctor on duty to release the child from her cage and the mother from the unbearable pain. The mother was given insufficient painkillers and was screaming till the next morning while the father was getting restless and frustrated. Finally, at 6.37am, 2nd May 1987, a hairless baby girl was pulled out by the doctor and the dad rushed to count her fingers and toes. Happily he exclaimed, " God gave us a healthy baby!"
So this girl grew up, transforming from a total tomboy into a lady..(maybe not quite there yet..) She had her prime time becoming a head prefect in high school, hanging out in several cliques, holding few responsibilities, and becoming the teachers' pet during high school. Sometimes she does feel that God has been "unfair" as she felt that she was blessed too much if compared to others. God gave her good results, singing, dancing and acting talents, an incredible family, a good circle of friends, a great deal of confidence and dimples that she has always been proud of... To top things up, she was even blessed with three full-scholarships after her SPM examination... She could never fully understand the goodness of God.
But life for her wasn't a bed of roses from the beginning till the end... She had her share of drama in her process of growing up... Hypocrites, back-stabbers, cheating-lovers, and heart breakers going in and out... Yet she had to live up to her name, a beautiful name carefully selected by her parents - Felicia, meaning "the happy one". Therefore, she tends to hide behind the mask of a "bakchi", by being silly, bubbly, and yet proud of it. Before she knew, the mask was embedded in her, it became her, they became one.
To date, she may have some regrets in her life but she wouldn't want it in another way. She's excited about becoming a teacher as she believes she has what it takes to be an educator who inspires and makes a difference. Besides having a more intimate relationship with Jesus, she's contented on being single at the moment. She learned through the hard way that rushing into one and compromising on wrong decisions are simply unwise. She loves her life in Auckland and cant wait to unfold every single day to see what God has planned ahead for her...
She got to sign out for the moment as she still has to re-edit her assignment due tomorrow.
Till then~ Chow & God Bless @(^w^)@
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